fialleril: [my favorite shapeshifting genderqueer trickster] (Loki)
Loki is the Snape to Balder's Dumbledore.

Think about it. Everybody knows Ragnarok is coming, and when it comes, all of the elder generation of male gods are going to die. The only ones who survive Ragnarok are a) exiles (Hoenir), b) children (Magni, Modi, Vidar), or c) already dead (Balder, Hodur).

So Balder dies well before Ragnarok, misses out on the battle and blood and death and all-consuming fire, and comes back to life just in time to find the world reborn, a blank slate just waiting to be ordered afresh, and himself the heir apparent of the gods, with basically no one to challenge him for the status of chief god.

And he'd be a good ruler, too. Unlike Odin, he's renowned for his justice and fairness as well as his wisdom. If Loki is the sort of trickster who wants to balance the scales by burning everything to the ground and starting over, Balder is definitely the guy to start over with. But in order to ensure he'll be around to start everything over, he has to die first. Loki is both the person who ensures that Balder dies, and the person who ensures that he stays dead - that is, stays in Hel, where he is safe from Ragnarok and in place to take the field once the world is reborn.

Surely someone has written this, internet? Don't tell me I'm going to have to write it myself!
fialleril: [another armed occupation is not freedom] (Cham Syndulla)
Remember that alphabet fic meme waaaaaaay back in the day?

Found this lying around on my computer and realized I'd never actually gotten around to posting it. It's not the greatest, but I like some things about it, and I don't think I can play with it any more, so - here ya go, internet!

Title: faith
Characters: Cham Syndulla, Gobi, Orn Free Taa
Timeframe: prior to the Clone Wars show
Rating: PG
Summary: In the beginning, he’d believed in a lot of things.
Warnings: References to political violence, slavery, and systematized oppression.
Notes: [ profile] glassapples requested "faith + Cham Syndulla" way back on that meme, so here it is.

faith. 590 words. )
fialleril: [a fire that will burn the world] (Sigyn and Loki)
Talked myself into it after that last post. But wow it feels good to write something again.

Title: Faithful Sigyn
Characters: Sigyn, Loki, mention of Odin
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 961
Summary: Sigyn is a badass. A screw destiny take on the binding of Loki and the coming of Ragnarok.
Warnings: Since this takes place after the binding of Loki, reference is made to many of the horrible things that happened then. So, potential trigger warning for torture, murder, child abuse, and gore.
Notes: This probably won't make much sense without at least a cursory familiarity with the myths, but if you really want to read it anyway, I'd recommend checking out my last post here for background first.

Faithful Sigyn )
fialleril: [hai thar bb] (Azula/Ty Lee)
Hey there internet! Long time no post!

Alas, work is my life. I don't even know where to begin with all the stuff I've been up to in the campus ministry department since my last post, but here's a quick run down: New Orleans was some good times, there were some service events and faith sharing things and personal crises of every stripe, sometimes I felt like I was on call 24/7, we are renovating the office, and also Lent is coming up fast!

So that made no sense. Let us talk about something more interesting. Specifically, Valentine's Day!

Now, you might be saying, "Fia, I wouldn't expect you to be into Valentine's Day? It's kind of not your idiom at all." But I would disagree! I submit to you that delicious chocolate is always my idiom, no matter the day of the year.

Seriously though, I am a big fan of the legend of St. Valentine. In fact, we are having a Theology on Tap tonight with the students who are of age, and I'm going to be talking about him and leading a discussion of how we can reclaim the counter-cultural reality that was at the heart of St. Valentine's work.

I have been thinking about making my return to LJ with a series of posts on saints for queering the church. While St. Valentine doesn't exactly fit that, he is definitely related, so I'll start with him.

There are several different St. Valentines, all of them martyrs, and not much is known about any of them historically. Legend, however, is a different matter, and when it comes to early saints, especially, legend is likely to be more important than history. It's the story that has lasting power.

My favorite legend of St. Valentine goes like this: Valentine was a priest under the reign of Emperor Claudius II (268-270 CE). Claudius was involved in several unpopular wars, and in a desperate bid to recruit more soldiers, had forbidden marriage for men eligible for conscription into the military. Some versions of the legend actually say that he suspended marriage in the city of Rome entirely.

Valentine went against this edict and spent his time marrying couples in secret. This is, of course, where we get the connection with romance and romantic love in the modern holiday, but I think we've forgotten a very important part of the story.

Valentine was caught marrying a couple against the edict and arrested. He was brought before the Emperor, who had him beaten and executed by beheading. He was executed as an enemy of the state (much like Jesus, in that sense), because marrying the people he was marrying was a political action. By performing marriages, he was actively denying soldiers to the military and making a very real protest against the war.

This is the element of the story I think we've lost. The legend of St. Valentine isn't just about love; it's about a revolution. It's about a political act of protest - the original "make love not war."

And I think this is why St. Valentine is a good saint for queering the church. I think the modern parallels are pretty obvious. Marriages that are illegal and thus contentious political acts? I suspect if Valentine were alive today, he'd be getting himself excommunicated for officiating at gay marriages. And then getting himself put on the FBI watch list for acts of military sabotage.

I'd love to see this element of Valentine's legend reclaimed. Valentine's Day: the day you buy your sweatheart some chocolate, write some cute cards, and take direct nonviolent action for greater justice in the world.
fialleril: [the fires and the black river of loss whose other side is salvation] (holy)
In my continuing quest to be as heretical as possible, on Tuesday evening I attended Fr. Roy Bourgeois' talk at the Chicago stop on his Shatter the Stained Glass Ceiling tour. This was a pretty amazing gathering of folks speaking against the sin of sexism in the Catholic Church and in favor of women's full inclusion in the church and the priesthood.

Fr. Roy was told last year, after he attended the ordination of a woman priest, that he had 30 days to recant his position, or he would be excommunicated. He refused to recant, and instead sent the following letter to the Vatican Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith:

cut for length and awesomeness )

It seems the Inquisition is determined to remove every good and positive thing from the church. And yet...their attempts to do so only showcase the courage and faith of those who dissent.

I'm afraid I'm going to sound like a gushing teenager, but Tuesday night really was amazing, seeing all of these women who have followed their call in spite of the hierarchy's teaching and threats. And, frankly, this is just what I needed in my own current struggle. This is why I wanted to join the Catholic church.

For those interested here is a petition in support of Fr. Roy and women's ordination.
fialleril: [the fires and the black river of loss whose other side is salvation] (a history of resistance)
So I finally decided to watch those new Clone Wars episodes. I know, I know. "Fia," you say, "The Deserter is right up your alley! You knew it would be! Why did it take you forever to watch it?"

But I have to work myself up to these things. Because I cannot help dissecting this show. It's just a thing I must do, it seems.

And so here are some thoughts! On the off chance that I'm not the last person on the internet who has seen "Grievous Intrigue" and "The Deserter," I have put my thoughts under a cut!

here there be spoilers )

the other family ghost

Thursday, July 9th, 2009 09:20 pm
fialleril: [the fires and the black river of loss whose other side is salvation] (holy)
Today at work I was going through massive stacks of books, seeing which ones were published by AAR (which we therefore have to keep), and which can be given away. And I stumbled across a book about my great-great-grandfather, Henry Steel Olcott.

He's an odd case in our family history. A national hero in Sri Lanka (apparently he's even been called a Bodhisattva?) and the founder of a branch of Buddhist thought that's been instrumental in changing Sri Lankan society. (The Wikipedia article is fairly decent on this: check it out if you're interested.) And yet on this side of the pond, there's still a fair amount of passed-on bitterness, because he abandoned his wife and children to do all this.

Here, have a picture:

So, needless to say, I took the book. Should be interesting reading.
fialleril: [will you bear this storm?] (Shmi)
So I have three papers due this week, plus a final exam, plus my thesis revisions due by next Wednesday, so you know what that means.

The plotbunnies pick now to invade.

So. Some of you already know about the pirates universe. Then there's what's affectionately known as revolutionary universe. Well, damn it all, now there's another one. Yes, another massive, chapter-length Star Wars prequel AU that I will probably never actually find time to write. But that won't stop it from consuming my muse, I'm sure.

I blame [ profile] sunnyskywalker's revolutionary!Shmi fic for the germ of this idea. It started with the vague idea that Shmi would make a pretty awesome Tatooine version of Harriet Tubman. It started there.

And it continues under this cut... )
fialleril: [Na-Ekkreth the trickster] (Anakin)
The second part of the post. In this post you'll find:

[55] Star Wars prequel concept art ( I blame [ profile] flaxenescapee)
[21] [ profile] starfoozle's art

[x] Comments are nice. :)
[x] Credit [ profile] fialleril. If you use any of the icons featuring [ profile] starfoozle's art, please credit her too!
[x] No hotlinking!
[x] Textless icons are not bases. Please do not alter.
[x] Resources are here.

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the rest under here )
fialleril: [the fires and the black river of loss whose other side is salvation] (Yue)
Because this post was so massive LJ wouldn't even let me post it. >_<

In this set you'll find:

[4] Avatar: The Last Airbender
[9] Star Wars prequel films
[9] Star Wars saga poster art
[60] Star Wars: The Clone Wars (spoilers for Hidden Enemy!)

[x] Comments are nice. :)
[x] Credit [ profile] fialleril.
[x] No hotlinking!
[x] Textless icons are not bases. Please do not alter.
[x] Resources are here.

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the rest under here )
fialleril: [a bit like The Idiot, only written by someone much less talented than Dostoevsky] (Jar Jar Binks)
This time [ profile] sunnyskywalker gave me Jar Jar Binks.

Y'all know how I feel about that Gungan, so sit back: this could get long. *is resisting the urge to turn this meme into a meta in defense of Jar Jar Binks*

Okay I lied. It did turn into a meta. )

character meme

Wednesday, April 15th, 2009 06:16 pm
fialleril: [the fires and the black river of loss whose other side is salvation] (Slick)
Both [ profile] starfoozle and [ profile] betareject tagged me for Slick for this meme, so I figured I'd better do it. ;)

some things about my favorite rebel clone under here )

icon meme

Friday, April 10th, 2009 11:56 am
fialleril: [the fires and the black river of loss whose other side is salvation] (Lando)
I love my f-list! You guys are all too good to me, and lately it's been like an early birthday. :D Yesterday I got a package from the lovely [ profile] emmaorgana containing my very own Stupid Sexy Ventress! Clearly Emma knows me too well! *hugs*

Also, Emma tagged me for the icon meme that's going around, so:

1. Reply to this post, and I will pick six of your icons.
2. Make a post (including the meme info) and talk about the icons I chose.
3. Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
4. This will create a never-ending cycle of icon glee.

icons and explanations under here )
fialleril: [another armed occupation is not freedom] (start the revolution)
[ profile] cham_syndulla [ profile] cham_syndulla [ profile] cham_syndulla


[ profile] cham_syndulla [ profile] cham_syndulla [ profile] cham_syndulla

That is all.

It is finished!

Tuesday, April 7th, 2009 06:15 pm
fialleril: [another armed occupation is not freedom] (Cham Syndulla)
And she bowed her head and handed over her spirit.

The thesis, a.k.a. the sword of Damocles that's been hanging over my head for the past semester, is done! Actually, it was finished and turned in yesterday, but let's not lie, I was way too tired to make a post about such then. I've pretty much survived the last two weeks on tea, energy drinks, and sheer will-power, as well as some very encouraging words and the understanding of a couple wonderful profs.

And, surprisingly, I don't completely hate the thing. In fact, I think I might have even had a couple interesting and original things to say. And most bizarrely of all, I'm actually kind of feeling the urge to write meta about the role of the mother of Jesus in John's passion narrative. But that can wait.

Right now, I'm sipping black currant wine and eating a doughnut (because I can!) and revelling in the prospect of at least a week of freedom. There are other papers to write before the semester is done, but somehow, none of them really seem to matter when you've pulled off a massive 60 pager. (With 100 footnotes. I'm absurdly proud of the footnotes, for some reason.)

AND, as though to ensure that this day would be wonderful, this morning when I checked my mailbox on my way to work, there was a package from [ profile] starfoozle, who, for the record, is pretty much the greatest person on earth. She sent me Ray Bradbury's Dandelion Wine (yay summer reading), along with a card containing THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PIECE OF ARTWORK I HAVE EVER SEEN!


Why yes, that is Slick, Cham Syndulla, Kitster Banai, and Palo Gvanish all in one picture. You guys have no idea how long I squeed over this. I've had a ridiculous love-sick smile on my face ALL DAY because of it.

And so. Thanks so much to everybody who left comments on my post of rage a few weeks ago. *hugs you all* I'll try to catch up on reading people's posts and fics and doing some memeage soon. :)
fialleril: [another armed occupation is not freedom] (start the revolution)
34 icons of Cham Syndulla under the cut.

[x] Comments are nice. :)
[x] Credit [ profile] fialleril
[x] No hotlinking!
[x] Textless icons are not bases. Please do not alter.
[x] Resources are here.

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the rest under here )
fialleril: [another armed occupation is not freedom] (Cham Syndulla)
I present to you the summation of all my loves, and the most beautiful revolutionary in the GFFA.

spoilers for last night's Clone Wars )
fialleril: [the fires and the black river of loss whose other side is salvation] (Slick)
Series Title: Nervous Conditions
Character: Slick
Spoilers: For Episode 16 "The Hidden Enemy"
Word Count: 190
Summary: Even if they kill him it was worth it.

Slick )
fialleril: [a bit like The Idiot, only written by someone much less talented than Dostoevsky] (Jar Jar Binks)
Guys, I am upset and annoyed about the portrayal of so-called "pacifists" in the latest Clone Wars episode, and I will probably make a post ranting about it soon. BUT. [ profile] polly_moopers is a mind reader, and she just wrote me the most amazing fic.

About Jar Jar leading a non-violent revolution.


after the war

Friday, July 11th, 2008 08:45 pm
fialleril: [my eyes are yours; they are not blue, but they're wide open] (martyr Kitster)
I've finally finished my second [profile] saga_6  fic!

I can't seem to stop writing war fic for these prompts. But it's not my fault. Mythology just lends itself to war stories so well, and these first two Greek mythology prompts especially.

Props to anyone who catches the reference in the title. ;)

Title: Clone Wars GI
Author: [personal profile] fialleril 
Set: Mythology
Theme: 2. The Anger of Achilles
Claim: Anakin Skywalker and Kitster Banai
Rating: PG-13
Character(s) and/or Pairing(s): Anakin/Padmé (pairing minor), Kitster, Obi-Wan, the Jedi Council
Summary: When Anakin Skywalker runs from the war and the monster he is becoming, he finds that the only place he can go is home.
Warning(s): mention of military violence, some disturbing imagery, and post-trauma symptoms
Notes: It would have been very easy to write a fic about Anakin's anger for this prompt, but I wanted to do something a little different. So instead I decided to focus on what Achilles does because of his anger. He stops fighting.
This fic could be considered an AU branching off from my first [profile] saga_6  fic, "Patriarchy," but it can easily stand alone. Finally, chus is a Tatooine concept similar to the Korean idea of han, but more focused on the internalization of evil experienced.

Also, thanks to [profile] haydens_angel81 for inspiration with one of the art scenes.

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